Hello

I'm what you call "An Old Soul" and very determined and strong-minded.  From a very young age I was determined to learn why I felt a certain way and how can I feel better.  This was all triggered from childhood neglect, deep loss, emotional and sexual abuse, leaving me with PTSD at age 12.  I had a roof over my head, good food, clean clothes, a nice Mum .... but that's it.  There was no guidance, emotional support or deep level of care from anyone in my family.  Two days after my 16th birthday, I was on my own.

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My life has been a series of relationship challenges (I wonder why...), deep grief, and too many experiences of hurt, betrayal, rejection, abandonment and loneliness.  However I never gave up looking for the answers that will one day put it all together and leave me free to find joy again.  I was given the role of scapegoat by my lovely siblings and had my fair share of narcissistic and gaslighting abuse that nearly ended me... but not entirely and I kept that small flame burning and refused to let it go out.

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The last 7 years have been the hardest of my life as I navigated the pain and grief of my mother's death and gross sibling jealousy and hatred.  This resulted in chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia.  My nervous system said "that's enough!" and down I fell.  The brain fog and fatiigue was so severe that I couldn't keep a thought longer than 7 seconds so helping myself with my own knowledge was impossible.  I focused on the nutrition side of things but again, the fatigue is so debilitating that I was always reaching for food and food that gave me a "hit" so I could feel alive again.  Weight gain brought on insulin resistance and NAFLD.  Every day I would get up in pain, try my best to achieve something, anything, and fall into bed at night totally depressed.  As the years went on, I didn't stop however I began to believe that life had no meaning for me, that I hadn't and couldn't contribute to life so what was the use staying alive, and for the first time in my life, I had a plan.  A plan to end my life.

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Prior to my health challenge, I was a Shamanic Teacher and absolutely loved teaching what I love.  As that "Old Soul" I always had access to higher learning, intuition and I had studied Shamanism for many years.  One day, just as I was getting ill, I no longer had access to all the information I once had, and even if I did, brain fog and lack of energy prevented me from accessing anything in my brain.  The reason I mention this is that eventually my energy returned enough to give me a little hope and an opportunity was given to me to become a student of shamanism again with direct tuition from traditional Incan Paqos.  It was this study and receiving shamanic healing from my Shamanic Sisters that began my Rise again.  Once the energy started to return... and stay .... it was then that my brain began to work again and I was able to access the information I needed to learn the root causes to my physical state.

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The negative unconscious beliefs that I learnt as a child and spent a lifetime reinforcing, were showing themselves everywhere in my life and I just kept "overcoming" the consequences of them but never really doing the work to transmute them via shadow work, belief change and shamanic practices.  I invite you to look at your own life right now and everything that's not going as you would like it and let me share that it has absolutely NOTHING to do with who said or did what and EVERYTHING to do with your internal programming playing out onto the screen of life to serve as a mirror of what's playing out inside you, and if, like me, you don't do the work, these beliefs will eventually take root into your physical being to really get your attention.  You either take this gift of life to deal with them, or die and have to do it all over again.

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Most of our programming is complete in childhood by the time we are 7 years old through experience, observation and direct communication.  Who came up with the idea of let's program them before they even have a Will of their own?  Well that's another story, however if we possessed resistance then we wouldn't have embodied the programming, which overcoming and learning from them, would have the greatest lessons and growth for us.  Unfortunately, most people are like I was and just push it away, get on with it, pretend it didn't happen, whatever it takes to keep going, right?  Does this sound familiar "I can't deal with this now, I have too much to do and I can't afford to fall apart".  Not putting yourself first, making everything else a priority my friends, is called self-abandonment and suffering.

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It doesn't have to be that way and your life and the things you don't like about your life doesn't have to be that way either.  We have the knowledge, power and processes to change our internal programming to reflect a life we wish to create, and learn the priceless lessons of soul-growth that our existing program had gifted us so we can High 5 our Spirit Team when we leave, and get a PASS.  

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This is where I come in.  I have learnt the professional and transpersonal processes and skills necessary to help clients make the physical, emotional, mental, spiritual transformations they need to bring contentment, wholeness, joy, success into every area of their life, IF you are willing to let me guide you and you do the work with me.

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